Taken from my journal earlier today.
“I should be in New York right now. In central park. Or in Brooklyn. Or hopping subways. I should be with friends right now. But I’m not.
I’m in Arizona.
And I’m alone.”
I was bitter, sad, and I just wanted to get the hell out out of the desert. Things haven’t gone the way I pictured they would last year. And I’m ok with it, I know I have to roll with it and keep going.
I know that what I’m doing is important.
And right now it has to be more important than the other things I want to be doing.
It has to be.
Being smacked with the realization that somewhere down the road my path and the path of all my friends split and we went down opposite directions….well it sucks. But I paved this road with the months of training, work, and perseverance I’ve had to have. So if I can do that, I know somewhere down the line I can make these roads meet back up again.
I just need to find a way to live both the life I want to live, and the life I have to live.
Is that even possible? Can I be two people at once? Can I turn them into the same person?